Our God is AWESOME!

If nothing else, this whole miscarriage journey has really brought me closer and more in tune with God and what he wants from me and my life! What an AWESOME God I serve! For starters, I got some news from the doctor's office about bloodwork that I had done a couple weeks ago. The doctor called me after seeing him for the 2nd time for a sonohystogram to tell me that maybe I hadn't in fact retained any tissue and that he wants to do another sonogram to look at what it could be. He also shared with me results from the bloodwork I had done. He told me that my bloodwork showed that I was heterozygous for Leiden Factor 5 which is a clotting disorder. He told me that he'd be prescribing me Lovenox injections to help with the clotting and that things looked good. He was going to have me come in after my next cycle to check out one more time what it was he saw on the sonogram. YAY! I am waiting some more, but I just feel it with every ounce of my energy that God will bless me and that my time is coming!

God has given me a wonderful family and support system. He gave me my parents who have both helped get me through this journey in their own ways. Both of my parents have helped me get through some of my grieving by talking about my feelings and that even though I was grieving, not everyone was out against me. Some people just don't know how to deal with miscarriage or loss because they have never had to deal with that. My parents have both helped me through feelings of jealousy and anger and have helped me look at the brighter side and what Jesus would do in my situation. They helped me in my prayers too in what to talk to God about and ask him for.

God has given me Nathan, my most wonderful caring loving husband. In this recent miscarriage, I see Nathan standing up to his parents and siblings for me and taking my feelings into consideration. Nathan has been the rock that I needed by my side to get me through these tough times too. Even though he doesn't talk about the whatifs, I can still see that he cares and wants me to be happy more than anything.

God gave me my son who seems to know the exact moment I need some cheering up. He gives me the most wonderful hugs just at the perfect time. There was a reason I was blessed with my son before these miscarriages. I just know that God has great plans to use Kyler in the future too!

And last but not least, God gave me his son Jesus! What I have had to go through seems so small and miniscule in comparison to what he had to give up for ME! I can only look ahead in anticipation for what God has in store for the rest of my future! God has every detail already planned out and I cannot wait to see that ALL played out!

And now, my favorite pic of Kyler since my miscarriage in April...I just LOVE that smile!